Trust

Homework is not entertaining enough to keep my attention long enough to complete it. So I have decided to distract myself with something more entertaining: blogging. This is of course after I looked through a couple hundred old photos, got up several times in search of something to eat which I decided not to do since it was all junk food and also aimlessly clicking around on facebook for a while. I did however do something productive towards homework and find the quotes that I wanted to use for my reading response, as well as email my teacher about a problem I was having with my audio clip.

So today has been an overall interesting day. Classes were fairly good. I love my digital journalism class and my teacher is absolutely adorable! Edited some audio for a project for that class and it was fairly easy. Went to news lab where we had a boring lecture on Access. Then...comes the part of my day that was...well....I'll explain.

I decided I need to go get an advising appointment since I want to do photography as well as journalism. So I headed over to the Art building, where I proceeded to wander through disturbing hallways filled with florescent lighting and unfamiliar sounds echoing along the way. The people I passed were of course, art students...not to stereotype but, they were all a tad strange. I started thinking, "Why would I ever want to take a class in this building?" The artwork, or as I call it, "artwork" wasn't even art to me. I don't understand. And even before I got to the advising office (or found it) I was not even wanting to be there. And so I walked in there determined to figure out a way to do Photography, since it's what I love and what I want to do more than anything.

"What can I help you with?" I am asked immediately as the door opens.
I proceed to tell her I came for drop in advising and that I am a journalism student and want to double major.
She says, "You can't do that."
I'm like...hmm? Can't double major?
"Nope."
Ok....How about majoring in journalism and then separately majoring in photography?
"Nope."
Ok, I don't get it, are we on the same page?
"I"m not sure."
And this conversation goes on for a while.

The woman proceeds to tell me (in a not very kind matter) that it is not possible to ever do two majors when doing photography because photography is a 3 year program and you accumulate too many credits. She tells me if I'd like to come back and talk to the head of the department I can later but she just stepped out. Then proceeds to suggest I just take the art 140 class since I can't do the degree which is basic photography, although I probably wouldn't get in because it is fairly competitive. I tell her I don't need 140 and I'm already past that level of learning (was a little angry at this point). She says "good for you." I turn around and walk out.

Of course I was as kind as I could possibly be to this lady. However, in my head I was ready to scream at her and be like, noo...you are wrong because I know you can get extensions on how many credits you can take, its not a 3 year program, I've worked out all the credits and all I would have left would be the department credits. And on top of that, how the heck did my mom get two separate degrees, get 15 credits away from a third degree and then get a masters at the UW without coming to face this rule? The woman was an idiot and didn't even know what she was talking about. I looked it up once I got home and proved her wrong.

But, this has however made me to decide something somewhat drastic. I'm going to get my journalism degree and my comparative literature minor and then I'm going to art school. Yes, I've said this before but...I'm serious this time. I spent several hours today researching art schools, the costs, the programs and have requested information from about five of them. I don't know if I want to get a BA, Associates or even a certificate, but in the least I want to take classes that I WANT to take for photography. I feel like I'm at the point where if I wanted I could do photography without taking classes, but I would definitely feel more comfortable taking classes.

Of course I have to take into account that I'm only doing this if it is what God has for me. I had a hard time accepting that today after being at the advising office and crying a little. I'm not in control and if God doesn't want me doing photography at UW, then He won't let it happen. If He doesn't want me doing photography at all then, He won't let me do it. I don't think that is what He has in mind for me but I realized I have never given Photography over to Him...or Journalism for that matter. He has allowed me to be successful in both areas for quite a while but...I've never handed it all over to Him. So I guess this was His way of getting my attention because, I know I can't do any of it without Him.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path." - Proverbs 3:5-6

I guess I need to apply my favorite verse to my life a little more.